Can't help but cry...

Its not a good weekend for me. I had a talk with my mom and tell of
something really disappointing. I'm a person whose very open with everything I feel
especially to my love ones. Don't want them guessing whats on my mind.
I was so mad I wanted to shout yet still need to respect her. Feels like my heart wants
to explode and the earth's gravity was pulling my heart. When theres nothing you can
do about it, you just cry. Somehow it eases the pain. Of all people why on earth does it
have to be her? You want everything to be the best for her, you did all efforts
but everything was shattered in just one glimpse. I wanted to escape from what I really
feel but its my mom, shes a part of me and I don't want to just ignore and do nothing.
You wanted to tell it out loud that your mad and yet you wanted to say you love her so
much. You wanted to hate her for the rest of your life but you also want to forgive her.
You wanted to slap her hard but you also wanna hug her. My mind and my heart are
battling. Hope in the end everything will turn out right..